Centering Prayer Day 2

Last evening I nearly forgot to attempt Centering Prayer again. I was ready for bed and realized I needed to put this piece in before I went to sleep.  So, I sat up on my bed and tried to find that quiet center within me.  I did find it easier, since it was dark, to begin the travel away from my daytime material world and into a deeper awareness.

But, still plans and wonderings and scenarios kept flying into my mind.
In our group on Sunday I used the images of boats row boat bowslowing coming into view as a metaphor for how our thoughts trickle in to push into our quiet time. Well, my boats don’t gently nudge in, they are just, BAMMM!, there. I don’t get much warning. Before I realize it full blown scenarios are playing out in my mind.

I decided to use a word mantra to sort of focus my attention to get past random thoughts. And what came back to me was questions about why I chose that word. What was it about that concept that I wanted, that I feared, that I harbored anxiety about.

Ok, so a word mantra didn’t work to empty my mind.

Dang it, this is hard.  It sounds so simple, just empty your mind. Seek only the presence of God. Detach from what holds us – what holds our attention, our emotions,  our biases

This morning I’ve decided to read Nan Merrill’s version of Psalm 78:1-3 and let the ancient psalmist lull me into the presence of Holiness.

“Listen well, O peoples of the earth,

to inner promptings of the Spirit;

Let Silence enter your house that

you may hear!

For within your heart Love speaks: 

not with words of deceit,

But of spiritual truths to guide you

upon the paths of peace.

Mediations of the Heart (Thurman) Day 9

“How good it is to center down!” he writes. “As we listen, floating up through all the jangling echoes of our turbulence, there is a sound of another kind”, Thurman describes further. “A deeper note which only the stillness of the heart makes clear. It moves directly to the core of our being.”

I can get lost in the spiraling down (or in) while in a breath prayer or a resting yoga pose.  When I envision the energy of my chakras spinning around my body I imagine the core of my being, that sacred internal presence from which life springs forth,  spiraling out and all over my body.  In the spirit of releasing and seeking a different understanding I use the image of a spiral to at once disorient me (spiraling in) and reorient me (spiraling out).

 

Spiral Chapel of Thanksgiving http://picc.it/c/wallpapers/pictures/album/wallpapers_27/id/38403/@chapel_of_thanksgiving_spira