Meditation of the Heart (Yaconelli) Day 9

The word for today is “passion”. Mark Yaconelli reminds us that God has made each of us to embody and reflect the light of God.  The God who knit us together in our mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13) created each of us with a particular gift, a particular way of being and, a unique purpose that God longs for us to carry out into the world  This calling, this way of being, is our passion. It’s the place, Fredrick Beuchner defines as, “where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet.”  It’s that deep seeded desire trying to be birthed from you and which you don’t want to live without.

Yet, often we miss the opportunities to join in the sacred act of creating something with God. We think our painting is no good, or our music as mundane. We keep to ourselves rather than becoming involved in our communities where lively interactions can make a difference in the world. We cordon ourselves off from our emotions, from our desires, from the impulse to care for fear that we will be overwhelmed and lose our own identify.

Audre Lorde, in her essay, Uses of the Erotic: The Erotic as Power, defines the erotic as an internal requirement toward excellence. The range of human passion (or eros) is a wide spectrum of awareness and responsiveness to our natural world which varies from enjoying the pleasure of a beautiful field of flowers to the passion that provides heroic acts or destructive hate. Deeper than gender delineation the concept of eros is the primal pulse of life. It is the personification of love in all its aspects with creative power and harmony.

The Holy Truth is that we find ourselves when we surrender to the God’s impulse.  Ah! But that’s what we fear too.

The tension mounts as we want to makes our lives and our children’s lives more rich, more meaningful, more unique and valued; yet, we bury the very sacred seed of passion, the erotic impulse, out of fear. Yet, wasn’t it this impulse to change things for the better that Jesus worked with?  Didn’t Christ use his passion to heal, to reconcile, to demand justice and provide a vision of a better way to live?

This is my prayer, to live with and for passion.  passion burning heart

Permeating Eros, Spirit that dwells in every desire and relationship,

You are the impulse of God’s love.

Take my life and let it be consecrated to a Holy Passion.

Let my will be guided by you and be no longer mine for selfish gain.

Let me not fear the power within creativity and pleasure;

Direct it to serve, to lift up and, to love beyond the boundary of my doors.

Divine inspiration, you are both food and that which is produced. 

In the created world You propel us forward into work and relationships which

In return produces the artwork of life, lived together to be savored and celebrated.

Passion mandela quote on hand

Wonder, Fear and Longing (Yaconelli) Day 2

Desire – a craving, longing, or yearning – suggest feelings that impel one to the attainment or possession of something (in our imagination or in reality). To attain something either in our imagination or in our psychic/physical reality.  

Sometimes I think God exists only in our imagination.  That humans, for as long as we’ve had cognitive abilities, have done the best we can to understand how the world works and we attribute the unknowable or, rather the not-yet-identified and known, to an entity we call God. So, God is understood thru the best of our abilities to imagine, identify and express. Only in these limited human ways can we speak about God. I get a little defensive when people start putting words in God’s mouth to claim what God wants or thinks. God, by definition is omnipotent and unknowable. Remember how God put Job in his place? I would hesitate to speak on behalf of such an entity as if my familiarity with God gave me permission to infer the mind of God.

Job chapter 38: “Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind:

“Who is this that darkens counsel by words without knowledge?
Gird up your loins like a man,
    I will question you, and you shall declare to me.

“Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth?
    Tell me, if you have understanding.
Who determined its measurements—surely you know! …
    

12 “Have you commanded the morning since your days began,
     and caused the dawn to know its place,…

16 “Have you entered into the springs of the sea,
    or walked in the recesses of the deep?
17 Have the gates of death been revealed to you,
    or have you seen the gates of deep darkness?
18 Have you comprehended the expanse of the earth?
    Declare, if you know all this.

19 “Where is the way to the dwelling of light,
    and where is the place of darkness,
20 that you may take it to its territory
    and that you may discern the paths to its home?
21 Surely you know, for you were born then,
    and the number of your days is great!

22 “Have you entered the storehouses of the snow,
    or have you seen the storehouses of the hail,
23 which I have reserved for the time of trouble,
    for the day of battle and war?
24 What is the way to the place where the light is distributed,
    or where the east wind is scattered upon the earth?

28 “Has the rain a father,
    or who has begotten the drops of dew?
29 From whose womb did the ice come forth,
    and who has given birth to the hoarfrost of heaven?
30 The waters become hard like stone,
    and the face of the deep is frozen…

33 Do you know the ordinances of the heavens?
    Can you establish their rule on the earth?…

35 Can you send forth lightnings, so that they may go
    and say to you, ‘Here we are’?
36 Who has put wisdom in the inward parts,
    or given understanding to the mind?
37 Who has the wisdom to number the clouds?

41 Who provides for the raven its prey,
    when its young ones cry to God,
    and wander about for lack of food?

Therefore, it is only for me to speak my desires into the universe, it is not for me to speak of the universe’s desire, or God’s desire or your’s either – this craving, longing, or yearning that only the individual can know of her own. I do not presume to say our desires will be met by God.  The psalmist wrote: “who is man that you are mindful of him?” Desires are part of the human existence and spoken aloud in prayer in hopes that they will be met.

Psalm 8:3-4
When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers,
    the moon and the stars, which you have set in place,
what is man that you are mindful of him,
    and the son of man that you care for him?

Poem Draw Me Nearer

Draw Me Nearer Flowers on water Sagittaria-subulata-flowers
Fa Lane

Deep…

O My Heart’s Desire
Dip me deep beneath the surface

Lower…

Let me glide effortlessly to you in the center of life
in the depth of senses
in the nook of what can be possible

Nearer…

Draw me into the cubby that fits my shape
that serves my work
that protects my heart
that prospers my contentment