Today’s meditation by Rev. Howard Thurman calls us to be honest about ourselves, warts and all, when we are in prayer. He rightly say, that when we pray we don’t want to expose the most unseemly parts of our behavior, but rather the most worthy. He says, the ugly things in us we almost instinctively seek to hide, to cover up, so that we may seem pleasing in God’s sight.
I just want to give that a big “OH YEAH!” to that. I can’t honestly say when I last put all my foibles on the prayer mat. I try not to go into that zone of confession, that place where I have to say things like, “I really didn’t like… when he/she… and that was because I wanted to go my way”; or “I hate it when …. because I get so irritated. Why can’t it be like…. the way it would work out better for me?”
But, I’ve learned that sometime what we THINK would be better for us, in due time turns out that it might have been wrong for us afterall. Not ALWAYS wrong, but; there seems to be some poetry to letting “bad” things test our mettle and our capacity for grace. If I could admit the ‘unsightly’ things (since God know them anyway), perhaps I’d take the time to sit with them and find a lesson or a blessing despite them. Or I’d just learn to live with them and keep asking for grace.
Thurman prays this way, “teach us to know that Thy (yeah, he used the King’s English back in the 1950s) love is so whole and so healing that nothing less than all of us can rise to meet Thine all-encompassing care.”
Next time I’m on my yoga mat, my prayer mat, I’ll try to “BRING IT” to God, especially when I’m in child’s pose, which I consider to be a position of full submission to Christ.